Kathe:
Since I started therapy, I have been overcoming sensory inhibitions right and left: food tastes better -- and I pay more attention to its nutritional value as opposed to any emotional comfort it might give. I told you about the ground under my feet feeling more substantial. I don't know if that has led to any improvement in my posture, but I feel more balanced anyway.
But tonight while soaking I was overwhelmed by a rarer and more precious kind of improved perception: I suddenly had a powerful feeling of how much you really do value me, how much I mean to you.
I would have been unable to recognize such a feeling before, or if I started to get an outline of it, I would have recoiled from it with fear or horror or shame, feeling both unworthy and unfairly burdened.
The thing I craved like an addict was also something I couldn't bring myself to look at directly.
Oh, well, doesn't have to make sense.
But thank you for your love, admiration and desire.
-- Love, John
//The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Value all that you see, and see all that you value."\\
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